I started to write the other day.. thought i share some thoughts on veterans day..i couldn't.. then i thought what could i write about and these thoughts just started streaming through my head.. as i sent to many, my invite, to my thanksgiving... this year, i will celebrate in the most unusual way.. as i will be working thanksgiving.. it dawned on me.. november 24th, the day before, will be a year since my mothers passing...so i'm inviting moms nearest and dearest to visit at their leisure, that day.. i will cook up some of that famous spaghetti sauce, leave it in the pot, on the stove, for all to serve them selves, hell someone might even have to finish cooking the pasta, some one always had to finish whatever meal she started.. and then serve themselves as they are hungry..

i will be lighting the candles, as i do regularly, but not regularly enough.. i should light them every day.. i forget sometimes.. life..
The pretty glasses will be spotted, and maybe someone will get lucky and still find i didn't wash one well enough that her lipstick is still on one!!!! The invited guests will provide the cheep wine and vodka, neither of which i drink..

i will put out the dishes, the paper napkins, and the mismatched "silverware" aka utensils.. and the music, a little Marvin anyone? "Let's get it on" Engima.. i'm not sure i get.. maybe someone can explain it to me..Rod stuart seems to be missing, that album he made with all the love songs, Louis Migel.. besame mucho... can't get better than that!!!I might put that one on the top of my list..

There's a video i'm looking for but don't know what it's called, Miss Root insisted we watch shortly after we got her home,That was some day, with the hospice counciler insisting she was manipulating me into doing what she wanted and that wasn't a good thing.. i finally cut him off.. like i didn't know that? dummy who fucking cares.. she's dieing and anything she wants, she gets, she won't get it much longer.. idiot!!!... with life streaming by from the beginning of man kind.. into modern times and into the future.. just music no words, would love to find it.. it's here, maybe miss Cassie can help me find it.. There's also the video from when she was in N.Y. at the gallery opening to Gleb's one man show of photography, where the majority of the photos are of her.. and she was so funny flirting with both Gleb (http://www.glebderujinsky.com/) and Mel.. Oh how I'd Love Mel to come.. Mel Sokolski (http://www.sokolsky.com/)

Regardless who come to the day of remembrance, I will be here with the crew, and That is what counts..

when i was 9 i wrote:

Love is funny,
love is hard,
and sometimes...
I just don't understand it.

Has anything changed? HUM... I think not

Andrea and crew

R.S.V.P.