It is midnight soon on the east coast, i sit and imagine only three weeks ago, i was there, now on PST time..
my feet hit the ground on monday, i started to work, what for weeks, seeming like months, i couldn't focus 'till i worked a plan.. A & B for my mom's sake.. still working on B!!
onto my website, it's being completed in days, as if we have what it costs to do so.. what a bitch to struggle as an artist, where are those supporters!! like so many other got.. i've been blessed in many ways to countable to mention.. It is up to me to make Up Your Ear the success i want, and as well carry on my other artistic endeavors.. i eat, drink, and sleep this.. i may have a thousand other distractions, relationships, and goings on, but this is my one main goal.. i must do art, in it's many aspects, the writing, the painting.. and photography.. sometimes i feel like taking pictures, other times, i want to write.. Right now, i want my website in order, before i lose the christmas orders, this has been in the works since january.. really.. when u fund everything ur self and just make ends meet.. it gets tuffer.. it's the way it is..
you know if i could make a wish, as far as business is concerned,, I wish someone could see the potential i see in this earring biz of mine.. i know, with the right help, i could take this to the top.. happily sell it, run the co.. designs and so forth, and move on.. but without that realization, it's just another show, I love the travel, but it seems a waste of time, just a means to an end, if this is not the international earring co. it should be.. with true capital, and good guidance.... this really could be huge, no better than now, with this pathetic economy, how do u think the Vanderbelts made it, right.. shit.. during the depression.. and if ur buying this recession story think again.. well i'm Cranking none the less, and i worked a little carnival here in town, put on by the L.A P.D. on Pico, and La Cieniga, went for the connections and got a little more than groceries for the week.. but the connections, which is why i went, came strolling in, working some fashion show.. hum at the grove, for breast cancer awareness, 2pm sunday nov 21st Walk for Breast Cancer III, Johnny Rockets and after party, i will not, sadly attend, i have the crew, at the Sofiel Hotel, hosted by David Harrison Levi, some guru of the stars.. Known as the Star Maker..looks more like he attracts stars rather than make them.. whatever this is hollywood..
and as for my other endeavors.. keep posted.. i shall let u in.. lots to do..
and the love u make,
thinking of a beatle's song.. i'll post
be it well i find u
andrea and crew..
Thursday, 18 November 2010
Saturday, 13 November 2010
I started to write the other day.. thought i share some thoughts on veterans day..i couldn't.. then i thought what could i write about and these thoughts just started streaming through my head.. as i sent to many, my invite, to my thanksgiving... this year, i will celebrate in the most unusual way.. as i will be working thanksgiving.. it dawned on me.. november 24th, the day before, will be a year since my mothers passing...so i'm inviting moms nearest and dearest to visit at their leisure, that day.. i will cook up some of that famous spaghetti sauce, leave it in the pot, on the stove, for all to serve them selves, hell someone might even have to finish cooking the pasta, some one always had to finish whatever meal she started.. and then serve themselves as they are hungry..
i will be lighting the candles, as i do regularly, but not regularly enough.. i should light them every day.. i forget sometimes.. life..
The pretty glasses will be spotted, and maybe someone will get lucky and still find i didn't wash one well enough that her lipstick is still on one!!!! The invited guests will provide the cheep wine and vodka, neither of which i drink..
i will put out the dishes, the paper napkins, and the mismatched "silverware" aka utensils.. and the music, a little Marvin anyone? "Let's get it on" Engima.. i'm not sure i get.. maybe someone can explain it to me..Rod stuart seems to be missing, that album he made with all the love songs, Louis Migel.. besame mucho... can't get better than that!!!I might put that one on the top of my list..
There's a video i'm looking for but don't know what it's called, Miss Root insisted we watch shortly after we got her home,That was some day, with the hospice counciler insisting she was manipulating me into doing what she wanted and that wasn't a good thing.. i finally cut him off.. like i didn't know that? dummy who fucking cares.. she's dieing and anything she wants, she gets, she won't get it much longer.. idiot!!!... with life streaming by from the beginning of man kind.. into modern times and into the future.. just music no words, would love to find it.. it's here, maybe miss Cassie can help me find it.. There's also the video from when she was in N.Y. at the gallery opening to Gleb's one man show of photography, where the majority of the photos are of her.. and she was so funny flirting with both Gleb (http://www.glebderujinsky.com/) and Mel.. Oh how I'd Love Mel to come.. Mel Sokolski (http://www.sokolsky.com/)
Regardless who come to the day of remembrance, I will be here with the crew, and That is what counts..
when i was 9 i wrote:
Love is funny,
love is hard,
and sometimes...
I just don't understand it.
Has anything changed? HUM... I think not
Andrea and crew
R.S.V.P.
i will be lighting the candles, as i do regularly, but not regularly enough.. i should light them every day.. i forget sometimes.. life..
The pretty glasses will be spotted, and maybe someone will get lucky and still find i didn't wash one well enough that her lipstick is still on one!!!! The invited guests will provide the cheep wine and vodka, neither of which i drink..
i will put out the dishes, the paper napkins, and the mismatched "silverware" aka utensils.. and the music, a little Marvin anyone? "Let's get it on" Engima.. i'm not sure i get.. maybe someone can explain it to me..Rod stuart seems to be missing, that album he made with all the love songs, Louis Migel.. besame mucho... can't get better than that!!!I might put that one on the top of my list..
There's a video i'm looking for but don't know what it's called, Miss Root insisted we watch shortly after we got her home,That was some day, with the hospice counciler insisting she was manipulating me into doing what she wanted and that wasn't a good thing.. i finally cut him off.. like i didn't know that? dummy who fucking cares.. she's dieing and anything she wants, she gets, she won't get it much longer.. idiot!!!... with life streaming by from the beginning of man kind.. into modern times and into the future.. just music no words, would love to find it.. it's here, maybe miss Cassie can help me find it.. There's also the video from when she was in N.Y. at the gallery opening to Gleb's one man show of photography, where the majority of the photos are of her.. and she was so funny flirting with both Gleb (http://www.glebderujinsky.com/) and Mel.. Oh how I'd Love Mel to come.. Mel Sokolski (http://www.sokolsky.com/)
Regardless who come to the day of remembrance, I will be here with the crew, and That is what counts..
when i was 9 i wrote:
Love is funny,
love is hard,
and sometimes...
I just don't understand it.
Has anything changed? HUM... I think not
Andrea and crew
R.S.V.P.
Thursday, 4 November 2010
Hollywood, da da da da da da da da HOLLYWOOD .....
well lets just start with it is hot as hell, indian summer, 97 degrees, I don't like to be cold, but this is not warm, it's hellatious. Root's Place, my apt.. is about 10 degrees hotter.. if one more person askes, "What u don't have an air conditioner?" well if i had an air conditioner i wouldn't be sitting here at 6:30 am still perspiring from the heat.. it never even cooled off last night, yesterday my only relief from the heat was my trip to pick up The crew from school, in the little red car, Little Red Riding Root.
AIRCONDITIONING!!!! and that was short lived.. before returning..
There's a breeze, i see it out side my window facing east, the trees blow, not an incling of one passes through this apt..I now can not just open the front door as my mom has as i might distrub the nieghor, who's made such a fuss, now there are signsdown stairs informing me spacifically that no children under 8 can be in the pool and children between 8-14 the ages of Madeline and MJ, must not only be accompanied by adult supervision, must have a certificate for swimming.. ARE THEY KIDDING!! will post photo.
I say me because, if u really want to have a laugh, the signs were posted up with tape above the mail boxes a few days ago then they were Framed and placed above my mail box, #4.. as a reward for doing all his home work i promised I'd take andres to the pool, break the rules, as he is 7.. and a half.. without a swimming certificate, will make one up and print it out on the computer later, as there is no such certificate available in the state of california.. i wonder why as i write this i feel tears in my eyes.. They have it in for me.. let's face it and i can't imagine anyone could be like this.. And people watch soap operas Isn't that why i have the readership i have... whats the next sagga!!
As my day was scheduled with hair repair, I found The academy for goldwell, ellumine hair color here in Santa Monica so u might say i was on a short road trip, as santa monica according to map quest is about 12.5 miles from here and will only take 39 mins to get there.. so west i headed, found it with no trouble, and immediately had a connection with the parking attendant, camella, from brazil, she was surprised at how clearly i spoke, and how easy it was to understand me.. we talked about language and how people do not annucate words properly and that makes learning english so much more difficult, i used examples like thirty, which is usually pronounced thirdy, or how about fordy or fithdy.. she had trouble with the word culture, and i showed her where to put her tongue to say it. Most of us wouldn't even think about that but i've spent a lot of time teaching english having spent 17 yrs with a peruvian..i learned a lot about how we speak where we put our tongue to anounciate a word..
and that was just the garage where i parked!!! As i walked around the block already the air quite warm just a half block from the sea, i thought to myself, how on earth can anyone ever be bored, only if u have absolutley nothing going on in ur head .. that is certainly not my case..
ah so onto finding the academy, i was actually early and if u are not early YOU ARE LATE.. and being i'd left at around 9am i was sure to make it on time, when i drove down La Cieniga, there was so much traffic i could hardly believe that there is 14% unemployment here.. where on earth are all these unemployed people going anyway!! bumper to bumper on I-10 west also.. and who works down there, they certainly couldn't be on there way to the beach that early, could they.. anyone with intelligence should have been.. so fucking hot.. anyway.. I was greated by nicole, who was a very informed, educated girl of 30.. we got on immediately.. i was the only one there and they unlocked the door to let me in, just think they weren't sitting there making me wait till exactly 10am to let me in..I always find that so annoying.. we talked about color, what would work and what wouldn't ultimately we came up with a color palet that would work for both me, and her creative juices. i brought my computer assuming i would have ample time to write, as this was going to be a long task.. as it turned out we never stopped talking about the product, how it works, which i am very informed, she was quiet surprised and then started teaching me even more.. i was engrossed.. i had said i could sell this, i can't understand why more solons don't use it.. i personally found it intriguing, and my sales brain was at work.. can't sell something u know nothing about, and i am in the academy, where THE top hair colorists from a round the world come for seminars, hair designs for 2010, 2011, are already in the bag and they are now shooting 2012.. right.. wow.. they work with a sister co. KMS which really handle the Hair styists.. and new hair cut designs.. this was truly fascinating.. The entire process.. these huge photos hung as a divider, with some of the most beautiful photographed girls faces, should have taken my camera, who knew.. they were imposed onto clear, light wieght plastic , that would remind u of frosted glass, dangeling from stainless steal cable.. Nicole showed me all around, surprisingly, we were still just us, and the receptionist, free to speak.. then we went out for a smoke in the alley, a huge pho pa in santa monica!! They're so over the top, green doesn't get greener!!! shit while these assholes are jogging down sunset bl. in extreme heat, at rush hour am, breathing carbon monoxide is good for u... shit
where was i? oh oh, our conversation continued as she showed me all around the empty facility, where they give their lectures, kitchen, where they use caters, for special events, the bathroom with special frosted glass stalls, And their main office of operations, and open door set up so everyone can chime in if they choose.
During our long conversation, we brought up the value of the shower and it's many benefits, as it turns out, this is her special place to escape, as it turns out her mom is not well, and when i asked what was wrong with her mom, she said Pancreatic cancer.., she could find her self in the bathroom, take a shower, cry her eyes out where no one could hear her there...for the mystery readers that are from nations around the world, may i mention it will be a year november 24th that my mom died of this same hideous disease, I knew in a moment exactly how she felt, as i had found myself many a times reeling on the kitchen floor, or bathroom or car, or anywhere no one was, to just cry..It brought back a flood of memories, of a year ago.. she lives with her folks, and so she , like i was, has her hands full, and is there for each moment, and all it is to take care of a sick parent, Her Mother, the meds, the vomiting, the works.. I so know..
With all of that there's still more, as it turns out they will be gathering local artists for a show case event, there at the academy and i do hope i will be one of those selected.. i would really enjoy the experience, and the opportunity to explore other avenues for my business, Up Your Ear .. as well as be a part of their event.. and contribute to the events success.
ah what a day brings when i step out my door, just goes to show anything is possible and opportunies are around every bend, lets just see where this leads.. down the road!!
to be con't
andrea and crew
well lets just start with it is hot as hell, indian summer, 97 degrees, I don't like to be cold, but this is not warm, it's hellatious. Root's Place, my apt.. is about 10 degrees hotter.. if one more person askes, "What u don't have an air conditioner?" well if i had an air conditioner i wouldn't be sitting here at 6:30 am still perspiring from the heat.. it never even cooled off last night, yesterday my only relief from the heat was my trip to pick up The crew from school, in the little red car, Little Red Riding Root.
AIRCONDITIONING!!!! and that was short lived.. before returning..
There's a breeze, i see it out side my window facing east, the trees blow, not an incling of one passes through this apt..I now can not just open the front door as my mom has as i might distrub the nieghor, who's made such a fuss, now there are signsdown stairs informing me spacifically that no children under 8 can be in the pool and children between 8-14 the ages of Madeline and MJ, must not only be accompanied by adult supervision, must have a certificate for swimming.. ARE THEY KIDDING!! will post photo.
I say me because, if u really want to have a laugh, the signs were posted up with tape above the mail boxes a few days ago then they were Framed and placed above my mail box, #4.. as a reward for doing all his home work i promised I'd take andres to the pool, break the rules, as he is 7.. and a half.. without a swimming certificate, will make one up and print it out on the computer later, as there is no such certificate available in the state of california.. i wonder why as i write this i feel tears in my eyes.. They have it in for me.. let's face it and i can't imagine anyone could be like this.. And people watch soap operas Isn't that why i have the readership i have... whats the next sagga!!
As my day was scheduled with hair repair, I found The academy for goldwell, ellumine hair color here in Santa Monica so u might say i was on a short road trip, as santa monica according to map quest is about 12.5 miles from here and will only take 39 mins to get there.. so west i headed, found it with no trouble, and immediately had a connection with the parking attendant, camella, from brazil, she was surprised at how clearly i spoke, and how easy it was to understand me.. we talked about language and how people do not annucate words properly and that makes learning english so much more difficult, i used examples like thirty, which is usually pronounced thirdy, or how about fordy or fithdy.. she had trouble with the word culture, and i showed her where to put her tongue to say it. Most of us wouldn't even think about that but i've spent a lot of time teaching english having spent 17 yrs with a peruvian..i learned a lot about how we speak where we put our tongue to anounciate a word..
and that was just the garage where i parked!!! As i walked around the block already the air quite warm just a half block from the sea, i thought to myself, how on earth can anyone ever be bored, only if u have absolutley nothing going on in ur head .. that is certainly not my case..
ah so onto finding the academy, i was actually early and if u are not early YOU ARE LATE.. and being i'd left at around 9am i was sure to make it on time, when i drove down La Cieniga, there was so much traffic i could hardly believe that there is 14% unemployment here.. where on earth are all these unemployed people going anyway!! bumper to bumper on I-10 west also.. and who works down there, they certainly couldn't be on there way to the beach that early, could they.. anyone with intelligence should have been.. so fucking hot.. anyway.. I was greated by nicole, who was a very informed, educated girl of 30.. we got on immediately.. i was the only one there and they unlocked the door to let me in, just think they weren't sitting there making me wait till exactly 10am to let me in..I always find that so annoying.. we talked about color, what would work and what wouldn't ultimately we came up with a color palet that would work for both me, and her creative juices. i brought my computer assuming i would have ample time to write, as this was going to be a long task.. as it turned out we never stopped talking about the product, how it works, which i am very informed, she was quiet surprised and then started teaching me even more.. i was engrossed.. i had said i could sell this, i can't understand why more solons don't use it.. i personally found it intriguing, and my sales brain was at work.. can't sell something u know nothing about, and i am in the academy, where THE top hair colorists from a round the world come for seminars, hair designs for 2010, 2011, are already in the bag and they are now shooting 2012.. right.. wow.. they work with a sister co. KMS which really handle the Hair styists.. and new hair cut designs.. this was truly fascinating.. The entire process.. these huge photos hung as a divider, with some of the most beautiful photographed girls faces, should have taken my camera, who knew.. they were imposed onto clear, light wieght plastic , that would remind u of frosted glass, dangeling from stainless steal cable.. Nicole showed me all around, surprisingly, we were still just us, and the receptionist, free to speak.. then we went out for a smoke in the alley, a huge pho pa in santa monica!! They're so over the top, green doesn't get greener!!! shit while these assholes are jogging down sunset bl. in extreme heat, at rush hour am, breathing carbon monoxide is good for u... shit
where was i? oh oh, our conversation continued as she showed me all around the empty facility, where they give their lectures, kitchen, where they use caters, for special events, the bathroom with special frosted glass stalls, And their main office of operations, and open door set up so everyone can chime in if they choose.
During our long conversation, we brought up the value of the shower and it's many benefits, as it turns out, this is her special place to escape, as it turns out her mom is not well, and when i asked what was wrong with her mom, she said Pancreatic cancer.., she could find her self in the bathroom, take a shower, cry her eyes out where no one could hear her there...for the mystery readers that are from nations around the world, may i mention it will be a year november 24th that my mom died of this same hideous disease, I knew in a moment exactly how she felt, as i had found myself many a times reeling on the kitchen floor, or bathroom or car, or anywhere no one was, to just cry..It brought back a flood of memories, of a year ago.. she lives with her folks, and so she , like i was, has her hands full, and is there for each moment, and all it is to take care of a sick parent, Her Mother, the meds, the vomiting, the works.. I so know..
With all of that there's still more, as it turns out they will be gathering local artists for a show case event, there at the academy and i do hope i will be one of those selected.. i would really enjoy the experience, and the opportunity to explore other avenues for my business, Up Your Ear .. as well as be a part of their event.. and contribute to the events success.
ah what a day brings when i step out my door, just goes to show anything is possible and opportunies are around every bend, lets just see where this leads.. down the road!!
to be con't
andrea and crew
Sunday, 31 October 2010
Last year at this time i was here with mom, Madeline wanted to have a party and miss Root went balistic!!! so miss partier of all time decided dieing was of her top priority, and Bill stayed with mom while i went out to trick or treat with the crew.. it was a great night actually, and the homes here on the streets, we were on, were all decorated, to the 9's and everyone on the streets were all dressed up in costume. Kinda reminded me of east stroudsberg pa, so many years ago.. for about 3 years we spent halloween there, and thousands of residents came out in full costume, with their kids, and went from house to house.. the year of 9/11 i dressed as a patriot, in a heavy ecridorian wool itchy sweater, and jeans and carried a flag!!! a BIG flag.. that year madeline was a cat, and she was about 3, and everytime we went to the door she'd hiss at the person who was handing out the candy, it was hillarious.. in her black alfit and make shift tail, she had to carry!!
back to Hollywood.. i dressed up friday for the carnival at school and evidently i looked like a gypsy from another planet.. that's original!!! hahahaha.. look i had to wing it with what i had.. madeline was a hippy, and andres a cowboy.. all make shift.. but we pulled it off.. quite well i might add.. Saturday Madeline had a party with a few of her closest friends.. 22 of them, 4 or so showed up early around 3:30, and the kids went down to the pool, i said they could sit there but not to go in the pool..of course that was an opportunity for the first infraction.. right as i still had a few things to put together .. snacks and things.. by 5-5:30 the rest of the unexpected guests, on my part anyway.. arrived and the Wild Things began to party!!! consitering their were ultimately 22 12-14yr olds i think the party turned out ok, kids in costume, all laughing and acting their ages, but relatively good.. had to rhien them in a few times, the party was quite the hit.. glad it was because were not doing that again, ever.. too bad but it was too much evidently on the neighbor who has been busily complaining at just about everything.. and we surely wouldn't want to disturb him, god forbid.. the party was finished by 9pm and all the kids went home..
and if that were not enough, there was sunday, actual halloween, where tricker treating was on the agenda.. what, i have to dress up again.. oh no.. i decided to pull out another alfit in my closet and turned my self into a magicians assistant!! red top hat, long midnight blue gown and a cape in burgandy.. and hideous silver sparkly wedge shoes!!! and off the cowboy and the hippy, we went to madeline's friend house where we'd been the year before, sadly the adults evidently had plans and i was not invited with madeline's friends so.. there i was like a little kid left out, just Andres and i to fend for ourselves.. it's just more fun when ur in a group, walking down the street all together laughing .. well that was not to be, we also, andres and i, had been invited to stop at someones house that was having a little kid party but i had all these things to do sunday like laundry, that we ran a little late.. and didn't hit the party early enough.. so that was disappointment 2.. walked around the nieghborhood and at 7:30 called it quits.. time to go home.. pooped.. and my phone battery was dieing.. ugg..so home we went 2 disgruntled children and myself.. to tired to care.. off with the top hat, off with the cape, my magic has expired!!!
Monday.. an all new day, new week and the routine is getting to be one, in just a weeks time.. seems like i have been here a month.. It is truly amazing my mother lived with so many people.. i honestly do not know how she did it... I had a change of heart the other night and thought it might be ok with Mable and her daughter mj..staying on as i will be traveling to florida and wont be here mid dec-mid jan.. over the winter break.. so we only have to manage at the moment 6 weeks.. and i could use the $$ what can i say.. ah but no, more chaos would prevail..issues with Madeline came up which needed to be addressed then Mable had issues with MJ and on the day went.. not work wise productive.. but personally i think i have all my complaints and problems in order now and can address each one.. it is hard to solve problems u cant put ur finger on but the straight forward in ur face ones can be addressed!! is all i can conclude.. so i will write a list and see how each thing can be addressed, as their are too many people in a space to handle things as they r.. HOW DID MY MOTHER DO THIS.. well for one she didn't have kids .. and she loved many times the company.. i personally could do with out.. i have absolutely no problem being alone. in fact crave it..unlike last year when i really did need company after mom had passed.. Bill was kind enough to come by a few nights a week, and give me some adult time.. having been on the road for so many months in such a small space my only escape was the texting of friends, a great relief...The writing of this blog..another room to go to if u will, both by far better than the tv with ridiculous programing i could no more pay attention to than the man in the moon.. and i had the kids to take out when we got a chance.. That feels like plenty.. Now all this.. interruption after interruption.. complaints from neighbor(s) and a threat from the "manager" of the building.. just great.. A why did i move here? oh yeah mom was sick .. why did i stay? well, where else was i to go? back to florida? might be an option though i hate to say it, i wouldn't have a clue where there i'd like to live.. i just don't love it there.. and i don't want to be where it is cold, which begins to knock this state out as it has been chilly here, until today.. i'm at last in shorts and a t-shirt..sandals, This has reminded me over these last few days like the ride at the carnival that u stand against the wall, in a circle and the thing starts going round and round, and u get pushed up against the walls the floor drops out and centrifugal< (love the definition of this word) force holds u there, then when the friggin thing stops and the floor meets back up with ur feet, ur expected to get off and walk away, and ur so dizzy, and light headed u can't stand, much less walk..
but somehow not to long a stretch later, u gather urself up and the dizziness goes away and u find ur self like an ass standing in yet another line for another ride.. life goes on...
andrea d. and crew
back to Hollywood.. i dressed up friday for the carnival at school and evidently i looked like a gypsy from another planet.. that's original!!! hahahaha.. look i had to wing it with what i had.. madeline was a hippy, and andres a cowboy.. all make shift.. but we pulled it off.. quite well i might add.. Saturday Madeline had a party with a few of her closest friends.. 22 of them, 4 or so showed up early around 3:30, and the kids went down to the pool, i said they could sit there but not to go in the pool..of course that was an opportunity for the first infraction.. right as i still had a few things to put together .. snacks and things.. by 5-5:30 the rest of the unexpected guests, on my part anyway.. arrived and the Wild Things began to party!!! consitering their were ultimately 22 12-14yr olds i think the party turned out ok, kids in costume, all laughing and acting their ages, but relatively good.. had to rhien them in a few times, the party was quite the hit.. glad it was because were not doing that again, ever.. too bad but it was too much evidently on the neighbor who has been busily complaining at just about everything.. and we surely wouldn't want to disturb him, god forbid.. the party was finished by 9pm and all the kids went home..
and if that were not enough, there was sunday, actual halloween, where tricker treating was on the agenda.. what, i have to dress up again.. oh no.. i decided to pull out another alfit in my closet and turned my self into a magicians assistant!! red top hat, long midnight blue gown and a cape in burgandy.. and hideous silver sparkly wedge shoes!!! and off the cowboy and the hippy, we went to madeline's friend house where we'd been the year before, sadly the adults evidently had plans and i was not invited with madeline's friends so.. there i was like a little kid left out, just Andres and i to fend for ourselves.. it's just more fun when ur in a group, walking down the street all together laughing .. well that was not to be, we also, andres and i, had been invited to stop at someones house that was having a little kid party but i had all these things to do sunday like laundry, that we ran a little late.. and didn't hit the party early enough.. so that was disappointment 2.. walked around the nieghborhood and at 7:30 called it quits.. time to go home.. pooped.. and my phone battery was dieing.. ugg..so home we went 2 disgruntled children and myself.. to tired to care.. off with the top hat, off with the cape, my magic has expired!!!
Monday.. an all new day, new week and the routine is getting to be one, in just a weeks time.. seems like i have been here a month.. It is truly amazing my mother lived with so many people.. i honestly do not know how she did it... I had a change of heart the other night and thought it might be ok with Mable and her daughter mj..staying on as i will be traveling to florida and wont be here mid dec-mid jan.. over the winter break.. so we only have to manage at the moment 6 weeks.. and i could use the $$ what can i say.. ah but no, more chaos would prevail..issues with Madeline came up which needed to be addressed then Mable had issues with MJ and on the day went.. not work wise productive.. but personally i think i have all my complaints and problems in order now and can address each one.. it is hard to solve problems u cant put ur finger on but the straight forward in ur face ones can be addressed!! is all i can conclude.. so i will write a list and see how each thing can be addressed, as their are too many people in a space to handle things as they r.. HOW DID MY MOTHER DO THIS.. well for one she didn't have kids .. and she loved many times the company.. i personally could do with out.. i have absolutely no problem being alone. in fact crave it..unlike last year when i really did need company after mom had passed.. Bill was kind enough to come by a few nights a week, and give me some adult time.. having been on the road for so many months in such a small space my only escape was the texting of friends, a great relief...The writing of this blog..another room to go to if u will, both by far better than the tv with ridiculous programing i could no more pay attention to than the man in the moon.. and i had the kids to take out when we got a chance.. That feels like plenty.. Now all this.. interruption after interruption.. complaints from neighbor(s) and a threat from the "manager" of the building.. just great.. A why did i move here? oh yeah mom was sick .. why did i stay? well, where else was i to go? back to florida? might be an option though i hate to say it, i wouldn't have a clue where there i'd like to live.. i just don't love it there.. and i don't want to be where it is cold, which begins to knock this state out as it has been chilly here, until today.. i'm at last in shorts and a t-shirt..sandals, This has reminded me over these last few days like the ride at the carnival that u stand against the wall, in a circle and the thing starts going round and round, and u get pushed up against the walls the floor drops out and centrifugal< (love the definition of this word) force holds u there, then when the friggin thing stops and the floor meets back up with ur feet, ur expected to get off and walk away, and ur so dizzy, and light headed u can't stand, much less walk..
but somehow not to long a stretch later, u gather urself up and the dizziness goes away and u find ur self like an ass standing in yet another line for another ride.. life goes on...
andrea d. and crew
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