where do i begin! there is a frigging fly.. flying all around. u cant see it but he's there..

I awoke this morn to the ring of my phone.. a text.. i was already up about 30mins. just laying there, so peaceful. over cast, lazy, dam i should get up and make coffee.. out my window, low lying balloons hovering over tuffs of grass,and dry dirt.. horrible on shoes, i've spent the summer in my ugliest shoes.. and accidentally left the camp site in them.. the absolute worst. i have this one pair that should have hit the shoe grave yard a year ago.. i call them my driving shoes! they are so hideous at this point! u can't imagine.. and i have this black pair of paten leather looking!! , that i call my hiking heeels!! i wouldn't be caught dead in sneakers or anything of the like! .. the other alternative.. bear feet.. what a peasant!

after coffee, i started to put the bar/booth back in the van as it was drisslin and i wasn't sure how much rain to expect.. i have given up T.V. i cant be bothered.. I did was watch t.v.. morning noon and night time.. especaily after 911..
so much information.. i was up to date on everything.. right now i can only be up to date with us..what's going on in the gulf, as i am going to the shrimp fest,, god help me.. what we are doing, how i am going to do it.. what ever that might be.. I was down today, for the first time in a while, maybe a month.. huh?

got just the boost i needed, thanks barbara.. did itsy, but will look into the other avenues, My website is still under construction, next week we start again, and there is so much to be done.. on a limited budget, it takes forever.. truly.. this sucks.. what i could do with this Up Your Ear business with a little capital.. have been doing this with cash only for all this time.. 18 years.. got a great thing here.. just .. requires a lot more than one person..

one person can not fill out 7 sales tax forms every 3 months, for states i only go to once.. this is ridiculous.. go on line and fill out the boe.. board of equalization, or how about new york, or the worse.. new jersey.. didn't even want to enter the state.. because it .. how about deadlines for shows, combating over working and the crew.. and the shows in california must think artisans can afford $700. shows for a 3 day event... and i sure u it isn't worth 350. saw a show today near where i live.. $950 for 3 days.. r they kidding me? and the ridiculous of the sales tax and each different county.. i'm not a book keeper! i'm an artist.. and i can beryl afford my book keeper Renee who sodeservedlyneeds to be paid .. boy i'm the big complainer... hardly myself.. well i am not really complaining..so much as stating how it is..

too many logistics to focus on the prize..

well that's my take on it..

as for the birthday, andres had a great time with camp friends, and we sat around the fire pit, bob next door supplied nearly all the wood, and amy his wife even wrapped one of my gifts to andres for me.. we hid it over at their place! thanks again for coming.. and sharing.. it was really pretty, with my bar, booth set up.. the little electric tea lights..Clyde and mirina came, thanks to u too.. and madeline put together the legos .. as she had the year before.. bless her, but she loves it also.. glad she is so good at it, as i am not.. more like alfredo, in that respect.. when i see andres take some thing apart.. i always think of jertudes, alfredo's mom.. and the story of how he took everything apart, and back together again.. Andres takes everything apart.. getting it back together again is another story , but he's getting there!

aug. 17

Normally i publish or post.. and then start a new dialogue.. but this time i'm just gonna cont.. yes i could say "going to", for the writers out there! and the readers!! haahha

love when i here from one reader.. privately and can absorb, what u've shared, and put it to practice.. like my swearing!! look how good i've been!! it's just that here, i should be able to.. swear that is.. i try very carefully not to swear, out side of with close friends.. and usually with in their presence, only.. it it really depends who u r as to weather i swear.. so i'll do my best not to just think of the impact it will have later if i do!!

After my glum out look yesterday, i decided to look into a cart at the grove.. might be just possible.. check out the new schedule.. 7 days a week, 10 - 9.. oh know!! will hire staff, thats all there is to it and pray this is a good bet.. either the grove or the farmers market.. love to do both, but don't know if that would work..

just in a panic about returning to l.a and struggling.. just don't want to go down that road.. suggestions of returning to fl. where at least i can work every weekend within reason.. then where to go in fl. and move furniture.. or sell everything.. i don't know.. Madeline wants me to give it at least another winter.. school is so good there.. she's kept in touch with friends everywhere for several years now as we traveled.. and i in courage it.. by text, or e-mail.
well, i leave it with the hands of god, and of course will do my part.. god only does for those that do for themselves..

it was another long day.. productive, in many ways.. exchanged, the defective digital video camera, to best buys, oh don't go the route it's a ridiculous process.. had some food court lunch, went to home deep, for display materials for the booth.. stop at stop in shop, again.. nearly live there, small fridge!,

and off tomorrow to well fleet, 5:30 am.. oh NO!! supposed to be over cast tomorrow.. good for the flea market, or anywhere working near a beach, who would of thought a beach would be so much competition! it is.. and tomorrow is my day! cloudy!

after that, the laundramate, where we r to have a picnic with Diane.. so look forward to sharing that..

till then.. my friends..

Andrea and crew..