an early morn, readying myself to hit the road.. wonder how i write and do this.. me too!!i combine coffee, with writing.. in Louisiana, where of all things, when i checked into this campground just outside baton rouge.. they asked me , as i'm from west hollywood, if i were an actress!!! right.. as it turns out.. they r filming the 4th Twilight, and another movie, battleship.. i must be on my way home.. who knew i'd call west hollywood home.. or anyone would.. but there u have it... some crew fellow, was checking in as i was leaving.. and i said oh so ur from hollywood.. me too.. he seemed so typically hollywood removed and stuck the fuck up.. like i was interested in whether he was a film guy.. like i'd just gush all over, thrilled to be anywhere near the glamour of his job.. who gives a hoot.. went to my coach and drove to my site.... not another thought..

He should have known who i was!!! the writer, of this fantastic blog!!!! hahahahaha.. reporting upon the many events and places i've been and sharing my thoughts, of life, a journey having little to do with the roads which i have traveled this long 16 weeks.. and yet short, as i start my way back, chiseling away at the miles ahead.. and the life lessons, learned.. or acquired , that i will continue to learn from.. this is what this has been all about.. and sharing my thoughts, as many have shared theirs with me.. guiding me to realize who i am.. who i am not!! and like u all, my readers.. on that search... or not.. just the being aware.. of how we can effect one another, by our words, or lack of.. sticks and stones..huh i think we can much more move each other in one direction or another by words, by no means, mere.. we can melt a heart or simply destroy it, all if we let either in.. i wonder should we allow both in, in order to do so be filled with the love we deserve, can we shut one out and still allow the other in.. or must we be able to allow the hurt in, as well .. if a door is open it's open to all , theirs no half open half closed..

open.. id say is the way i am.. this way the kindness, giving, receiving, loving and being loved has the room it needs to get in and when that occasional spear .. to the heart passes too, through that door, like a rainy day.. a reminder of how much is better, than it is worse..

so to gleb and wally who, so, without a thought would open an old, thought healed wound.... if i were to allow that i would be allowing for anyone to come along and miss treat me.. as i had so many times, the old familiar.. not so familiar any more..

i have allowed love and kindness into my life.. people who genuinely care.. we must all realize parents are not always the ones who show u love, though we expect that's where we are to learn it.. maybe we learn lack of love.. the long monsoon of childhood, to grow up .. and learn that that is not it, at all.. that a sunny day isn't merely a sunny day but how it makes u feel through and through.. deep inside.. i have felt all this and now know..

The loving friends who have helped me see this.. are with out a doubt my guidance.. thank u all so much.. this list is long if i were name off all those that have been kind and good.. i am truly blessed and those blessings transfer to my children.. and i see them by far happier than i ever was as a child.. not that i thought i was unhappy.. didn't know the difference then..

what a trip.. hop on board as i roll down the road another day to see states, texas soon oh dear.. having traveled through florida, alabama, Mississippi, and Louisiana.. be with us in spirit.. good spirits!!

love to u all, and may ur day be a joy ..

love always ..
Andrea and Crew